Tuesday, October 09, 2007

This could be it.

The geneticist just called me. He said the last batch of testing yielded significant results. He is pretty sure of KayTar's diagnosis. I think I almost died. DIED. I'm shaking. Seriously. You hope for an answer every single day, and then you get test after test after test that come back normal or abnormal without any conclusive answer and you stop expecting an answer. Then it happens and you freak the hell out. I was talking to him and making notes while periodically covering the phone and whispering "Holy shit! HOLY FECKING SHIT!" while jumping up and down.

He thinks she has dopa responsive dystonia. I was freaking out so I can't remember the exact findings, but they were evidently convincing. He said it explains her brain abnormalities, her delays, and her episodes. He said it is treatable and you see results in just a few days. Kids who can't walk, suddenly can in a matter of days. Kids who aren't talking, suddenly are talking in a matter of days. The treatment makes a huge difference. I AM FREAKING OUT! Holy crap. This might be it. The answer.

She has to go in for another lumbar puncture, because they have to make sure it wasn't a lab error, but this could be it. It might be it. This is the first time someone has said, with any medical certainty, that they might know what she has. He also wants to do a gene study. He said 80% of cases test positive for a mutation, but that means 20% do not. So, the CSF test is to confirm, the gene study is less important, but could be informative. It is still a maybe, but he feels so strongly that this might be it that we have a genetics appointment on Thursday. These appointments are booked 8 months in advance and we got one for two days from now, just like that. The geneticist himself called me, that doesn't happen. There are genetic counselors for that. He called so quickly that he beat the counselor to it and she had no idea he had already called!

I don't even know what else to say. This might be it and I cannot believe it. I didn't know if we'd ever get this close and here we are. It is so surreal. This could be it. We might be done searching. We might actually have an answer.

PS: After the appointment, I'll give you the run down of what exactly it all means, but I couldn't wait that long to get this posted. Make sure you check out the post below this one for some fun photos of Josh and I.

ETA: The comments on this post are the text equivalent to a room full of friends jumping up and down and squealing in excitement with me. It was exactly what I needed. Thank you guys so much. I'll let you know what happens tomorrow.

62 comments:

slouching mom said...

YOU SEE RESULTS IN ONLY A FEW DAYS OF TREATMENT?

I can't believe it! Jumping up and down over here! Woo-hoo! The. best. news. ever!

Nancy said...

Ooh, I hope you get your answers. Fingers crossed.

Janet said...

My stomach is already in nervous knots for you. Wouldn't that be un-freakin-believable-awesomeness?

Yes, it would.

Fingers crossed here too.

Hetha said...

I can't believe it either Kayla! And the geneticist called you himself even! Okay, breathe....

WorksForMom said...

I've been following this and just had to tell you how happy I am for you to be able to get results soon. Fingers are crossed.

JC said...

Seeing results within days of treatment? That's amazing!

I hope everything goes well, I'm glad you are finally getting answers!

Christine said...

OH OH OH OH!!!!!

this is AMAZING! I am knocking on wood and crossing fingers.

yipee!

InTheFastLane said...

I so hope that this is it! I would hope that they wouldn't get your hopes up if it wasn't pretty close to right.

Anonymous said...

What?! Seriously, what? I can't imagine the butterflies you have right now. Good Luck!

Jill

Chaotic Joy said...

WAAAAAAAAA! Are you kidding me? I actually shaking, I am so excited. Girl. I am praying.

ewe are here said...

Oh my god. She could be showing improvement in just a few days?! That would be totally amazing!

I hope they're right. I really do.

Katie said...

Can't wait to see you on the other side of the moon! THRILLED doesn't even come close to describe this!

Lisa b said...

Kyla that is AMAZING.
Not just answers, GREAT answers.
wow.

bubandpie said...

!!!!!!!!

!!!!!!!!!!!

It's like an episode of House - nobody knows what's wrong, and nobody knows what's wrong, and then suddenly there's a diagnosis and a treatment and a happy ending.

Wow.

Wow.

jen said...

AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Is this it? oh my god? and a solution? it comes with a solution?!?!?!

oh honey..i am SO happy sitting here looking towards you, SO HAPPY FOR YOU.

flutter said...

*tries not to burst into dance*

Ben & Bennie said...

Prognosis:

* Good with adequate and early treatment

This is great news. I don't know what others have said but you guys have done so far what the medical journals suggest.

This maybe a better prognosis than what others have suggested. If so there is hard work ahead but your family has already taken the bull by the horns.

I know what it feels like, Kyla. If you want to talk then e-mail me and I'll shed some light on the feelings, grief, and moving on. We'll give you our number. Call collect. My wife tells me to say she'll be glad to talk with you too.

I know this seems very difficult but at least you now might know what your are facing. We love you guys!

Mad Hatter said...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

OH MY GOD, Kyla. I am breathless with this news. OH MY GOD. Keep us posted at every step of the way.

And don't forget to breathe.

Lori at Spinning Yellow said...

Wow!

I am also jumping up and down for you!!

This is absolutely amazing news. An answer. A possible fast improvement.

Wow.

Junie's Blog said...

Wow!! This is so awesome!!! I'm so excited for you guys!!!

natalie said...

Oh, Kyla...I'm crying for you. For answers and relief and more answers and a treatment that will work for everyone in your family. And for medical staff who love you so much that they call you themselves!

Mad Hatter said...

OK, now I am just popping back randomly to make sure all your friends have seen this post. Seriously, I am giddy about this. Oh please let this be it!

Kristin said...

WHAT!?!?!?!?! Oh my gosh, Kyla!!!! Goose bumps everywhere...my eyes are so blurry...I'm so excited for this possibility. And improvement in a mere matter of days...unreal. UNREAL.

I can't believe you get to go in again in just 2 short days.

Please God don't let it have been a lab error. I have a feeling it was NOT. I have a feeling it is your long awaited answer.

I am so thrilled, Kyla. Woo hoo! Big hugs and high fives all around.

laundrylessons said...

Wow!! What awesome news. I hope at your appointment they're able to start a treatment that will help immediately. Just think about all the exciting stuff Kaytar is about to do!

nomotherearth said...

I read this earlier and didn't have a chance to comment - WOW! How exciting!!!! I've been thinking about you guys all day long.

dawn224 said...

Improvement in a few *days*? Holy feck. Wow!

Christine said...

Holy fecking shit is absolutely right!

Fingers crossed that you get your answer and that treatment really does do some amazing things. I can't even believe that last one!

GAH!

(Oh and VERY cute pictures. Babies! ;) )

Maddy said...

Wow. I think we are all gob smacked! [unable to respond verbally in a meaningful manner!]
Fingers crossed.

Chrissy said...

UNBELIEVABLE. Huge. This is huge. I can't wait to hear how the appointment goes. Wow.

You've been on my mind since the dream post the other day. I'm continuing to pray for y'all.

SO AWESOME!!!

carrie said...

I'm nervous for you. I hope it helps.

crazymumma said...

This is AMAZING exciting news!

Results that soon!

Yes!!!!! Go Kaytar!

NotSoSage said...

Kyla! I'm shaking! I'm crying. Oh my god. Oh my god.

I just...

I'm sorry I haven't been around. I only took the time to come by because Mad told me to...

A few days??!!! I am SO freaking out.

Em said...

wowowoweeee!!!

such wonderful news!!! I'm so pleased that you have an answer!

cinnamon gurl said...

This is huge!! (I saw this yesterday afternoon, and went to comment immediately, but I guess I got sidetracked in trying to collect my thoughts because I discovered the browser still open this morning. Sorry.)

This is truly momentous news!!

Aliki2006 said...

I'm jumping up and down along with you!!!

I hope I hope I hope this is the answer. This would be incredible.

Fingers crossed.

metro mama said...

Oh, I'm so hopeful and happy for you!!!

Magpie said...

Wow! I hope that this is indeed your answer.

raehan said...

Jumping in here to say, "Yay!" A million "yay"s.

Becca said...

HOLY FECKING SHIT IS RIGHT!!!!!!!

I am tearing up with happiness for you. A matter of DAYS? Oh this is wonderful news.

Julie Pippert said...

Hopeful and happy jumping and squealing here!!

You know, I saw a special on Discovery Health about this! I've seen the results. It's amazing.

I can't wait to hear.

Fingers crosssed!!!

Gretchen said...

I came to you from Ben & Bennie. I can feel your excitement. I can see myself acting the same way! OMG, treatment?? OMG, fast results?? WONDERFUL news!!
My little guy has PKS like Ben does.
Praying for you--and staying tuned!
Gretchen
www.simonpeters.org

Sandra said...

Oh my god!!! I have tears in my eyes I am so happy for you. Can you hear me cheering from all the way up north!

Hugs to you. Fingers and toes crossed
xoxox

Mommy off the Record said...

Oh my goodness!! Yay!! I am so happy for you and your family. I hope this is it. I will say a prayer.

Beck said...

Oh KYLA! I'm so excited for you that I have actual tears in my eyes over here - wowowowow.

Nonny said...

I'm bawling tears of hope and joy here at the office! To finally have some answers, and, better yet, the possiblity of effective treatment--well, it doesn't get any better than that. Know that thoughts and prayers for you and your lovely family continue.

Amy said...

I am so, so happy for yall! So happy!! I hope this is the answer yall have been waiting and searching for. Tomorrow can't come soon enough.

Sending prayers for your sweet Kaytar!!

Hairline Fracture said...

Oh my gosh! I just came over here from Beck's site and read this. That's wonderful news! Obviously I don't know the whole story but I wish you all the best.

Alison

Sarah said...

Wow, you have a lot of people jumping up and down with you. Count me in. I can't imagine how it must feel waiting so long for a diagnoses. It must be a relief to have a name for it.

Jessica said...

That is amazing news. FINALLY an answer. I am so excited for you. This is the best news.

~aj~ said...

Wow Kyla! I hate that I'm so late in hearing the great news. This is just unbelievable! I can't imagine the excitement at your house right now. Results in only a few days? That is better than anything I even hoped/prayed for. I can't wait to hear more. I'm so happy for you!!!!

PJ said...

Hallelujah!! Can't wait to hear the results of the next tests!!

PJ

deb said...

That's wonderful news. Good luck.

epi said...

Okay, I'm late to the yay-for-hopeful-nswers party, but yay! I'm so happy for you and thinking good thoughts your way : )

creative-type dad said...

WOW!! A few days??

Keeping my fingers crossed...

DDM said...

Oh Kyla, I have no words. And I'm trying to catch my breath.
*Phew*
Okay. That there's even a possibility, let alone a STRONG possibility that this is it, is the best news that I've EVER heard Kyla. I know exactly how it feels to get used to having NO answers, that you learn to protect yourself by accepting that you might never know. We still don't know so much about Bugga, that to get even one piece to the puzzle is so exciting.

You might KNOW!

AND? YOU CAN SEE RESULTS IN A FEW DAYS OF TREATMENT?! Um? HELLO?! That is FAN-FECKING-TASTIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Kyla, you, Josh, BubTar and especially KayTar deserve so much to know that this is it, and that it's treatable. You deserve this so much. I'm going to wish it so. I'm talking to whomeverIbelievein aaaaallllll night tonight, and aaaaaalllllll day tomorrow. Everything is crossed for you.

Also? *Squeeeeeeeeeee!*

Julie said...

OMG OMG OMG WoW!

Her Bad Mother said...

Oh KYLA!!!!!!!

Everything crossed here for you! Update soon, please!!!

kittenpie said...

OMG I totally have chills reading this! I am so excited and I so hope he's right, especially considering what it might mean in terms of treatment. Holy hell, Kyla, I am bouncing up and down and I can't WAIT for you to hear! You must be just in a fog, if I am this excited from afar!

Mimi said...

Jump jump jump! Oh, Kyla how exciting! I can't believe I wasn't here sooner to jump up and down with everyone. Fingers crossed!

Jenny said...

It sounds like a true miracle.

And you totally deserve one.

carrie said...

Look at you! Beautiful girls.

Karen said...

happiness and hope coming your way! I am thrilled for this ray of sunshine.