Wednesday, October 01, 2008

Little baby seal

This morning, I was awakened by a distinctly familiar sound.

BARK! BARK!

The "little cough, probably caused by a tiny tickle in her throat" that Josh described to me when I got home from school last night had morphed, just like that, into the big bad bark.

BARK! BARK! BARK!

I sleepily nudge Josh and mumble, "Did you hear that? Here we go."

BARK!

"Mommy! I need my Qvar*! I need more Qv--BARK! BARK!--Qvar!"

Crying. Barking. Me, half-awake, stumbling to her bedroom.

BARK! BARK!

"I need my Qvar, Mommy! That hurts me." BARK! More crying.

She lays still in my lap, while I hold her spacer over her little mouth and nose. She breathes in the Albuterol slowly, as deeply as she can manage.

In between puffs, she says, "I feel sick."

I say, "I know baby, just breathe." and smooth her hair with my free hand. I shush her a little so she doesn't exacerbate it by talking.

"It's too bright in here. My eyes hurt. Make it darker."

"I can't, sweetie, there are no lights on. The sun is coming up outside. Put your blankey on your eyes until they feel better. Shhh."

I remember the date. October 1st. 30 days since the last episode, there's probably another lurking around the corner.

Her eyes begin to adjust, ever so slowly, and I feel a little rush of relief. The episode isn't here yet. That's something, at least.

Saturday, we were free and today we're paying the price.

Absence tally: 8 absences out of 14 school days

*Qvar is her asthma controller medication, but that's what she calls anything that comes through the spacer.

21 comments:

InTheFastLane said...

Poor Baby. I hate those coughs.

jen said...

i only have to struggle with this a few times a year, this inability to help my child breathe freely. those dark raspy moments are scary. i'm sorry for you both.

Chickenbells said...

Poor thing...there's nothing worse than not feeling well. I hope she's feeling better soon, and that nasty light stops hurting her eyes.

mommamia said...

I hope she is feeling better. Those coughs are the worst thing to wake up too.

AJsMom said...

Now why did you go and jinx it by titling a post "Normal"? Hope this one is just something minor and not a full-blown episode...poor princess.

~aj~ said...

Not again...

Poor, sweet KayTar. I pray she is feeling better soon. Give her lots of hugs from me!

Gwen said...

That's discouraging, especially after all your outing fun.

I'm sorry.

Magpie said...

Poor little baby seal. Hope she's better soon.

Lisa b said...

oh kyla.
I am so sorry.

Chrissy said...

Oh, that barking cough is the worst. I hope she bounces back quickly.

Cori said...

Poor Kaytar. Poor Mommy. I hope everyone feels better soon.

Ben and Bennie said...

I'm listening to Ben get his morning treatment as I type this.

tierd said...

Oh no! I hope she's feeling better today. That sound is the worst ever. We were considering taking Lainey off her inhaler this month, but I fear the cough.

womaninawindow said...

And when someone says, "Time flies," it's not always a weightless and light statement. 30 days! And to me it seems like last week. Here's hoping it's at least 30 more!

slouching mom said...

thinking of her and hoping she's doing better today.

Beck said...

My youngest brother was hospitalized over and over and over again with croup. I'd forgotten about that until just this minute.

Poor wee mite. I wish she didn't have to go through this.

Mimi said...

hey you .... um, can't talk, got a lot of catch up reading to do here, obviously ...

:-)

Amy Y said...

Oh geez... not another sickness :(
Hope she's better soon!!

flutter said...

oooooof. my heart, kyla.

liv said...

I am praying you get a break from all this soon. Healthy, healthy people is what you need in your house, lovey.

crazymumma said...

So her illness can trigger an episode huh? It makes sense doesn't it.

Around here, hearing the midnite cough makes us feel so down. Knowing that it usually spells a week of illness.

The price you paid for Saturday. It f'ing sucks.